Willpower, Activate - GO!

Arrgghh after a few days of flexing my willpower muscle i feel it teetering... I really struggle with chocolate and soft drink, i just downed a Dark Cherry Ripe.. Justification - But its dark chocolate... YEAH BUT ITS STILL 250+ CALS! boooooo

It does not help that in our new bran spankin new office, in my nice little hole in wall... this sits right across from me....

 This is our little fundraising store that we give the proceeds to a school overseas but REALLY!!! you know i am trying so hard to get rid of this weight and you feel the need to put this right in front of me.. If i go to the toilet i walk past it, go to lunch yep there it is, go to a meeting even walking in and out of the office i go past it... its torture... Some people dont see it as a massive deal but i think of it like this....

You would put a meth-lab in front of a Junkie??? or store your grog on the shelf where an alcoholic can see it... no you wouldn't.. well then why is this any different!

I am going to need some serious will power to combat this... why dont they have it available in a bottle.. or a pill.. really it would make life so much easier!

Goals.... Goals.... Goals....

Ummm I am actually stuck on this one, the last 2 rounds i have stank when it came to achieving goals so i guess you could say I am more scared then stuck ...

I find myself obsessing over the scales when i put a KG target down and to be honest I do not no how many kgs I want to lose, I know I am never going to be a twig and to be honest i do not want to be.. I love my curves, just dont want to be TOO CURVY!!

And running.. this for me has been an interesting one for me... I put down.. OOOO I want to run 5kms without stopping but deep down when i think about it... I don't really want to.. to be honest I couldn't care less about running.. I have never enjoyed it and 12months down the track on my healthy me journey.. I still don't enjoy it..  So i am not putting this down any more...

This round I am listening to Mish and sticking to the SMART rule....... with a big emphasis on the R

No more fluff, no more putting it down coz i think thats what I should be doing.... I need to be more REALISTIC in my goals...

Sooo I have put down a few.. not to many as I am still a little "Stuck"

1 Months lose 3 kgsrun 1 km without stopping1 - 1 1/2 cms off each arm1 - 1 1/2 of waist1 1/2 - 2  cms of hips1 - 2 off bust

3 Months lose 10kgs2 - 3 cms off each arm2-3 of waist4-5 cms of hips3-4 off bust

6 Months

lose 15kgs 

Teach FIRST zumba class 

12 month to come!!!! 

Excuses - Whats yours?

I am pretty sure I am the Queen when it comes to making excuses! Even though I did pre-season task 1 yesterday and I mapped out all my excuses I still found myself making them to get out of pushing myself hard last night and I have to say, props to my trainer Naomi for trying to push me.. I feel sorry for her sometimes. I must be such a handful and a pain to train coz my head is a bit of a mess.

So this round I will be focusing on the excuses or stopping the excuses! I have printed the above sign and put it around the place, on my desk at work, in my wallet (for when i go to buy junk "just one more wont hurt") on my fridge and cupboard and and in my bedroom. I am hoping that being more aware of them will help me pin point when i am making an excuse and when its a legit reason... Sometimes I do not even notice I am doing it and can make myself believe my own bullshit so easily.... so it stops now....

A few excuses I use (so if anyone hears my using them slap me please!)

To eat crappy food:

One more wont hurt
I'm stressed and need something bad to make me feel better (ok putting this down like this makes it seem rather ridiculous)
Work is so crazy I don't have time to cook....
I am trying to plan a wedding and its mental so i need a break from all this "healthy eating"
A little treat here and there is fine (yeah but 1 every day is not)

To not train: 

Tired
Not motivated
Can't be bothered
I worked out yesterday and i am sore
Ill do it later
I have too much stuff to do (wedding or work)
Family needs dinner
Its too cold
Have wedding appointments
Injury!!!!!! - I am scared ill hurt myself again.
Stuck in a meeting
Got stuck at work

I am sure I will come up with more so watch this space but my answer to all these is SUCK IT UP!! I have now changed my working hours which allows me plenty of time to get to the gym in the mornings before work... two birds, 1 stone my friend... workout in the morning and you'll have time to cook at night.. so easy!

IM BACK!

Ok people I am back! 


Last round I didn't get a chance to keep this updated as I was run off my feet with wedding planning and trying to keep on track. 


I didn't do as well as hoped as a matter of fact I didn't reach any of my goals set out. Lost 10kgs, start Zumba teaching, do 1000 steps without stopping and so on..... So when the registration opened up for Round 2 2012 it was a no brainer. 


In 15 weeks I walk down the isle and I am scared I will regret that I didn't bust my balls to feel AMAZING on my wedding day. My wedding photos are for a life time and I dont want to be the fat bride...plus its only fair that I am in my "prime" so to say when I start my married life and I cant wait to start a family so all this nicely wraps up into a neat little package... 


I have since updated my Facebook status to the below 


"The next 15 weeks - If I do not pick up my phone or return your call, chat to you on skype, come to your shindig, reply to you on fb or get in contact at all. Please do not take it personally... I am taking this time for me and to finish what I started in Jan 2011. I'll see you all on the other side.. happier, lighter and a better version of me.. also walking down the isle with NO REGRETS! Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation - This is it... last chance!! P.S You can find me at the gym if you really need me but im sure that wont be the case" 


And I really hope people understand, I have had lots of great feedback people commenting that I sound determined, that they are proud... now to hold up my end of the bargain and get moving...... 

Petrified!!

wow not sure what has come over me but I have just had a sudden slight panic attack.. I am not sure if I can do this!! what if I can't do this... what if my dress doesn't fit.. what if i get to where i thought and i don't like it... or the dress looks crap... and then there is the issue of excess skin... my arms are pretty big and i want to tone them up so i need to shrink them a little.. what if I have crazy amounts of excess skin... ZOMG..

Planing the rest of my life...

I have been told on occasion that I am a control freak, well so what if I am. Just coz I want to be organised and life to be organised doesn't make me a bad person... 

So with my control freakishness in full swing i am planning out my next 3-6 months worth of exercise, it is not an air tight schedule just some options that I refer to should I forget. 

A few main activities I do on a regular basis are Gym Classes, Dancing, Personal Training and Bootcamp. So blow is a list of the times they are all on and if one is not on (due to school holidays etc then ill pick up another activity). I am thinking Friday will be my day off as there really isn't much on that day that I enjoy doing... but i do need to slot my PT in there somewhere... 

Some fitness related goals I have sent from now until the end of June.

• Attend 2 (possibly 3) Pump Classes a week
• Walk/Jog 14ks at the runforkids event in April 
• Complete c25k 

Dear Mr Willpower...

It would be nice of you to show yourself....

Its like I go 2 or 3 days really good... then BAM! I hit a brick wall and eat everything in sight. Today I hate 2 chocolate bars, a magnum ice cream and a slurpee.. on top of Breakfast lunch and dinner.. then as i was cooking dinner i was starving so i had 3 (YES 3) pieces of toast with Jam.. I would love to get to the bottom of why i do this to myself.

Not much I can do now, I felt guilty so went for a walk with Tim and the dogs, I ran ahead and did a few exercises to get the heart rate up a bit (pushups, dips etc), I am sure I didn't burn that many cals but at least it was something right!

Apart from that I had a crappy day at work, it like I am a go to man to be yelled at and its getting really annoying. People do not do thier jobs correctly and I have to pick up the slack. I guess this sorta things happens in most work places but I am really getting jack of it. Maybe this is what triggers my crappy eating. Stress... hhmmm food for thought!

Anyways i best be off, I am going to document all my goals tomorrow ben thinking them through a lot and want to make sure they are achievable and measurable as Mish says.

Nyt Nyt

T xox

Can you belive its 2012... Where has the time gone!!

I remember high school like it was yesterday, such an amazing time; no responsibly, no drama (besides who will be your friend today) and no being an adult!

I have done 1 round of 12WBT and something Mish said sticks with me like fly in a web "We are no longer teenagers so we need to stop eating like we are" I think once this resonated in my mind for a whole it was like DING DING DING.. The bells started to sound, I have been holding onto the past, what could have been and what was and guess what.. IT MADE ME FAT!. I could eat what I wanted and had to walk everywhere coz I didn't have a car.....

Let me introduce myself, I am Tara a 27 year old average girl from Melbourne Aust, I was not always from Melbourne I grew up in Sydney's western suburbs and did a 6 month stint in Adelaide before putting my roots down in Melbourne. I am getting married in 8 months (Aug 2012) and the thought of walking down the isle like i do today (or more importantly like I did in Jan 2011) makes me want to sit on the floor and cry.

In Jan 2011 looking at photos from Christmas I was mortified, I don't think it really hit me until then just how much weight I had put on. At a not so health 97kgs i  knew that I needed to do something. So I put to use the Gym membership I had had for almost 12 months and never used to good use. I got me a personal training who is AMAZING and I owe so much to her.. From Jan 2011 to Aug 2011 I lost 6.3kgs.. I was so close to being in the 80s but it was just taking to long doing it on my own, I didn't have the motivation and I couldn't curb my binge eating. So after some investigation (and some scepticism might I add) I signed up to Michelle Bridges 12WBT (www.12wbt.com)  and have not looked back..

In the 3 months (plus a few weeks pre-season) I lost 6.4kgs and I didn't stick to it 100% so the thought of what I could achive if i did it properly makes me super excited. I have signed up for the next round with a crazy 19.1kgs to lose before my wedding I am putting it out there to the world (or the world wide web and whom ever decides to read this).

A couple pics of how far I have come:
                                                   

                                                Me and my fiancé in September 2010

                                           Me and my fiancé in November 2011 (12kgs lighter)